AUSSIEB post me a concerned mail:
Frankly, I think its a bladdy waste if you 'retire'. Go and live life! There's plenty to be done out there, if you know what I mean.

and my reply to him:
but i am living like i neber live before...and only regret din retired earlier....i am going places...my next destination...TAIWAN.

From:
aussiebiz
7-Jan 01:55
To:
leetahsar
668 of 703

83628.668 in reply to 83628.667
^^...but i am living like i neber live before...^^
Excellent!! that's one big, big problem solved!
Brother Lee,
I have personally know many ppl who have all the material comforts, very well off financially, got plenty of all the whatever C's(Credit Cards, Condos, Cannons, Cats, Cars, Country Clubs, etc, etc) and much more ...but sadly I can see they lack what many less well off ppl incl me have; and they don't; i.e. the inner peace and joy which cannot be purchase wif money.
So excuse me for saying this, stop whinning abt 'yesterday's'cruel and traumatic days, live for today, look positivelyfor a better tomorrow! Do you want me to get all the poststhat you've posted in this thread to sober you up??
Sori to say this, I sometimes think you are a very confusedperson. Notwithstanding that, even the visually handicapped may be a able to see that you are a nice person. I had come to this conclusion after reading many of the posts you've written in this forum for which I take it at face value. I must confessto some degree I have learn and gain some knowledge from this and your other threads.

so i told me in my next reply:
aussieb...i really hope u stop worrying about me...do u know that i even shouted to the world:
I AM THE HAPPIEST GOON ALIVE IN THE WORLD!
now how can i be unhappy....i said go sulk in a dark corner...dun talk my words literally lah....i am just teasing u guys.
i was infact happy cos #1 i am finally free from being someone's reserve sparetyre and #2 i dun have to entertain talking to choobeebee hours and hours of lor soh heartbreaks she got from sibeipine...u know like an agony uncle. she really can spend on the phone bills u know....money no problem to this freaking rich ex-chiobu of my.
and #3 i was very very happy for her and hope she finally finds true love in that freaking rich bf and can live happily ever after like a fairytale. the only time i was sad...ok not sad disappointed was my presents...my parting gifts she suppose to give me. instead she dares confess she detoured with bf to KL to party the NEW YEAR 2006...shit! and she din ask me along....:(
so brother, i should be the last person u worry in this world....all the gods, buddhas, daishonin, mother mary, pusas...etc...they are my friends and surely they protect and love this big goondu goon here....if not explain my luck in $Ds and totos...if suppose hor...if i strike the really super jackpot toto...i may invite people here to my give away free gifts party...just only suppose lah...daydream what, can right? ;9)

YES...aussieb...life is REALLY going on for me...after my garden was bulldozed, i was totally down and almost out. that's where i saw this site and lst time, i posted here. i got very encouraging words from someone called AHBENGSONG and a few others...who is now rarely heard...
i was very apprehensive. i wasn't young anymore. the saving was like almost approaching "empty". there was cloudiness and imminent darkness right ahead of me....my confidence was rock bottomed....
then i saw the buddhist beads a nun gave me during my 2nd trip to hk which i took a ferry to TAI YEE SHAN IN LANTAU island. took a bus up poh lian see...and there she was this kindly friendly nun. my lst encounter with her...we talked. she belanja me tea..talked and then suddenly she removed her beads and gave it to me....
me being a goon..take lor and thanked her. when i returned, i never really bothered about the strings of ebony colored beads. i just hanged somewhere.
then by affinity, a temple in balestier called me up to remove a rogue mango tree in their compound which was overgrown and making the temple very YIN....so i brought in my artillery....my group of small army of indians and bangalas i borrowed from my indian chief contractor. we rid the tree way through the night and ended at about 8pm+...
then the da si shiong of the temple invited me over during the weekend to buddhist chant. and i tot what the heck! free what go see lor...so i just pick up my ignored buddhist beads the nun gave me and blur blur went to the temple.
when the jokers there saw my beads, they thought i very deep cos the beads i was holding was ebony colored, theirs was a very pale whitish one.
da shi shiong asked me if i had chant like eons. i was surprised and blur when he asked me so. i told i roughly only knew a bit to chant the prajnaparamita heart sutra only. then he explained to me that by the appearance and color of the beads i was holding, it must came from some one who had chanted all his life to turn the pale colored beads to ebony dark. i was lagi blur...i revealed to him that the beads was given by a nun in lantau island...and then he told me i got affinity with buddhism...and so...the predomination keeps appearing hence thus in my dreams...i was a monk in yellow robe...my god...how to siam...huh...like in those movies u know...the dreams keep appearing....and i see myself a monk in yellow robe. mati lah, leetahsar...surely i hope i m not going to get it one day...but so be it...if it does come, it come..i will just accept it. but for now, i siam...i haven't enjoyed my retired life enough to forsake everything and go botak and be monk...so there u r. the uncanniness of my life.funny and weird. i also sometime feel very puzzled.
people study, go army. get a job. find a gf. patho. marries. produces babies. upgrade to grams...then mati. me...everything is totally far out and different from the average sinkie. funny hor?
so i called myself, leetahsar...the gooniest of the goons....hahaha;9) and stiking lotteries is my hobby now...hahahaha
like i said...i m the official time-keeper. i keep time now and not time keeps me. i am a free spirit. do what i want. go where i wish. there's nothing now...totally nothing that bimds me...so here i go again....
AM I THE HAPPIEST GOON IN THE WORLD? ;)

From:
aussiebiz
7-Jan 17:57
To:
leetahsar
674 of 703

83628.674 in reply to 83628.673
Time to change your nic to:
(NO MORE GOON)leetahsar

From:
leetahsar
7-Jan 18:07
To:
aussiebiz
675 of 703

83628.675 in reply to 83628.674
i still prefer to be a goon. a goon would not harbor hatred, vengeance, envy, and very forgetful...so it's easier to forgive and forget....
the trouble with this world and especially here in sinkietown, people thought they have eyes...but they can't see. they thought they have ears...but they can't hear. and worst they thought they have the minds...yes that they have ...but they lack the hearts....
and who are the people who fit the best to these mentality i ve just described....none other than the hopelessly ministars living in denials of the actual suffering of the people who vote or walkover them in....very very sad :(
and next erection, i dun think i will be able to cast my opps vote cos sure walkover again unless the opps can come up with 7 jokers to pit against lau lee who bosses over this super duper 7 cons grc...very sickening. make it bigger like 81 out of this world hyper super duper flooper grc...and they definitely get their thick skinned bei pine sey landslide victory....GOOD LUCK TO THEM!